Wednesday, 27 February 2013

*sigh* ...
suddenly I remembered our past
when you always called my name
when you always talked to me
when you always teased me
when you needed me
when you look at me
when you smile at me
and.. when I hate you..
...
now things are turned around
the fact that I hate you in the past now have turned around..
now you hate me..
I miss the old you..
...
I wish I can go back to the past
I know it impossible
past is a past
I can't change it
so let it past and face the future..
I know its hard but no matter what.. I've to face the truth :')

Sunday, 24 February 2013

OMG! finally.. I can update my blog 

Yesterday my wifi had a problem so I can't update it--"

and I happy today because I pass the test XD

congrats for me :)

and last friday.. (its about 'him' again)

I greet him as usual like "Hi *peep*" ((name censored :p))

and then he said to me "I hate you"

but that's not gonna make my heart hurt 

because I'm already familiar with that words

so you can't make me hurt again :p

and.. sorry.. I know this feeling wont go away

feeling about I just wanna be with you

and.. I'm sorry if I hurts your feeling

because.. its something I must live with everyday..

Saturday, 16 February 2013

I've got headache today..
I don't have time to rest.. *sigh*
because I have to prepare speech and presentation for monday
in monday I will having a test
if I failed in the test, I can't continue my grade..
so I will try my best to make a good score for my test :)
and.. as usual you didn't go to school today and yesterday.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH BUT I'M NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU.
weird huh?
I miss your face
I miss your voice
I miss everything about you.
and I wish you'll read this..
and I wish you'll support me in my test
this is words for you today : "GET WELL SOON, I MISS YOU.."

Tuesday, 12 February 2013

Today was a great day~ <<<-LIE
ok maybe not a great day.. *sigh*
this are my problem :
1. I can't forget you
2. I can't stay away you
3. I'm always thinking about you
(Warning! I'm not in love with him!)
 ... why this feeling won't go away?? ...
this afternoon I'm trying to stay away from you
but when I try to do that, you was sick (headache)
and I can't stay away and I was worried about you
so I said to you "If you sick, just go home and take a rest."
and I realize that I can't forget you..
damn.. *sigh*
and you really was going home
and................................... I miss you.

Friday, 8 February 2013

You didn't come to school.. *sigh*
wait, why I have to sighing? I'm trying to forget you
yesterday I tried to stay away from you
and I act like I don't care..
I know you hate me, and you want me to stay away from you
so I do it even if it hurts inside
Monday.. I hope you will come to school
I miss you..
you miss me? no, that's impossible if you miss me
remember! its not like I LOVE YOU but its like.. *thinking*
sorry I can't explain it in words--"

Thursday, 7 February 2013

Yesterday you were hit me and now..
maybe I should stay away from you
maybe if I stay away from you that will make your life better
A BETTER LIFE WITHOUT ME
*sigh* you know? you're so cold..
I want to tell you something..
I'm always waiting for you..
maybe its not makes sense but its the truth
I'm always waiting for you even if its raining or even if its storms or even if the skies get rough
I'm curious about what's your feeling about me..
I'll keep waiting until you show what's your real feeling to me

Wednesday, 6 February 2013

You hurt me. I'm just trying to greet you but you hit me..
I know you hate me! I KNOW IT!
but please.. can you give me a little smile?
just a little smile that can make me happy?
is that hard for you to give a little smile???
I really wish you will read this and realize that you already hurt my feeling
I may be looks cheerful from outside but deep inside.. I'm the opposite of it
I don't know how to say it but you're the one who can change me
after that, you didn't apologize to me..
*sigh* Is this the end for us? maybe I can't use 'us'. so..
Is this the end for me to let you go?
even I don't know what's your feeling to me?

Monday, 4 February 2013 is a day where you didn't come to school.. *sigh*
i know you're sick, get well soon :)
i wish you'll come to school tomorrow! because..

a day without you is like a day without color 

loneliness come to me

no smile

no laugh

no color

I MISS YOU

i know you'll never miss me

but i just want you to know..

the words that i write in this blog is all true

no lies in here 

this is a message for someone that always ignoring me.

i know you'll not gonna read this but i just want you to know that i always care about you
there's something about you that i want to know more
its not like i love you but.. in my eyes.. you're different from other boys
you're interesting to me
you never talk to me, call my name, or even smile at me
YOU ALWAYS IGNORING ME
i know this feeling won't go away
i always say and ask :
"you're cute"
"you never talk to me"
"why you always ignoring me?'
"why you never call my name?"
"why you never smile at me?"
even if you call my name, talk to me, and smile at me.. that's a miracle to me
the words that i said to you is all true
i've never lied to you
what makes you cold to me? i wonder..
are you afraid that you're gonna love me? but i think that's NOT true
because i know the girl that you like
and of course i'm not jealous about that, i just want you to be HAPPY..
that's all.. :)